Is there any other way? Who wants a life controlled by the getting and using and finding ways and means to get more. My entire day, my entire life was controlled by my next use. Not anymore. I have found a new way to live. Hope, freedom, and peace are a few things that a New Life can offer.
It’s that feeling of hopelessness, the despair that gripped my body until the air in my lungs was as toxic as the drugs I put in my body. That’s what active addiction was for me. Don’t get me wrong, I loved the drugs, but eventually they did not love me back. They morphed my face into a dark mask, my body into a form of currency, and took my soul until there was nothing “normal” about me. “Life without drugs is impossible” my head would tell me. “It makes me who I am”, “I can stop ” or “It’s not possible to stop”. These are things our disease says. My mind creates alternate realities where I am the center of the universe and everyone else is in the way or simply to blame. What a way to live! Addiction is cunning, I knew I was alone in feeling this way and no one understood. If people knew how impossible it felt for me not to be who I am they would definitely give me permission to continue. Lies we come to believe are just that, lies! Addiction is a powerful force, but it is NOT the most powerful thing I have come to know and believe.
Recovery is possible for anyone with a desire to stop using, we simply can’t do it alone. Finding a life worth living and being happy or free sounds unattainable, and, believe me, the road is ahead, and we do recover. My way never worked, do you have any failed attempts at living differently? I became willing to do something different and finally asked or help. I got honest. This show of strength and courage brought about my first introduction to recovery. Please don’t believe the lie, surrender and reach out so we can help you get that New Life you’ve been dreaming about, a Life worth living!